When I found out about the free to enter Marriotts way ultra I was instantly interested, who doesn’t love a race with no entry fee? It was only a couple of months after my first ultra but I’d be OK, right?
As the race got closer and closer I began to realise that if I was going to enter it would be a big ask, my training had been non existent and I have to admit that I had lost my running mojo a little too, but I did still intended on entering.
Fast forward to the weekend of the race and I made the very tough decision to not start, this was the first time I had ever DNS and it didn’t feel great. I felt like I had cheated myself, and felt like a bit of a failure, but deep down I knew that I had made the right decision and that there was a real risk of me being injured due to the complete lack of training, but that didn’t make the decision any easier!
It’s been a while since that race now and it still annoys me that I didn’t make it to the start line, but I have got my running mojo back, yay! I wonder if I would have forced myself to start if I had paid a entrance fee? Deep down I know the answer to this would have been yes, so I’m kind of glad that there wasn’t. Why do we feel like a failure after missing a race? The whole reason I couldn’t make it was because I was fatigued after running my first ultra a short while before, so surely I should be focusing more on the positive side of that? I guess it comes down to my character but to be honest that’s a bit rubbish, so I’m going start looking at the positives, yes I may not have made it to the race but I am now training for my second ultra the Waterway 30, which will be a couple of days after my birthday, and as I have already said I’ve got my running mojo back 😀
When this blog is published I will have just been to the Vegan Runners AGM in Brighton, I can’t wait for this as it will be great to meet so many like minded people and to race the Brighton 10k, so hopefully my next blog will be about how I got on and what happened when the Vegan runners descended on Brighton .